I need a breakaway :)

I’ve been sitting idly for 2 hours. Vacant mind, immobile body. But all in a while, thoughts, they brought me to the past. Blissful, gloomy, memorable, sweet, suspicious, pissed, confused, disappointed, crazy, I would say, a little of each. Mix feelings, hustling me to think, which I don’t want to. :'( 
Ironically speaking,

• When you thought you ruled it all, but as a matter of fact, you owned nothing.
• When you thought you could completely walk out of the mess with your prides, but, eventually, you realized something else weighs heavier than your prides.
• When you thought you could laugh gleefully, but deep down in your heart, you know it well, something’s just missing
• When you thought you wouldn’t shed a tear, but in the end, you had cried a river.
• When you thought busying with work kept you from thinking, after all, thoughts beaten you.

We, human are too fragile. Little things in life could bring us down.
You could be upset over a missing pen. Mad barely because your food haven’t been served after an hour waiting and well, to my case, thunderbolt to me merely because I gained a kg. Look, how we are being controlled by all these little stuff. Despite of how unwillingly we are, we still need to undergo this “complicated emotions”, no one could ever be exempted.

Anyway, I think it all depends on how well you play, how good you’re at disguising your feelings and how you manage to reallocate your focus. These may require skills. But skills can only be obtained through experiences. That’s why, we always say the veterans played it all. Because they had undertook too much, that they are already immune.

  

Okay lar, since new year is just 2 days away, new year new hope, so I guess this would be a good breakaway, I just want to be a carefree biatch. ROARSSS. Emotional, you ain’t taking me down. *Challenges accepted*

Hopefully 2012 would be a good year for me. HAPPY NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE :D Just in case I can’t make it on my next post. Take care everybodeh! :DD